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[unknowntodeath]

[Of course he'd ask.]

If you come to my room I'll explain in person.

[redeyedbluehound]

[Look, that isn't something you just broadcast Archer....Emiya. Whatever.]

Fine

[And within a few minutes, there's tapping at his window. Because this is Lancer.]

[unknowntodeath]

[Of course it's the window. Archer rolls his eyes as he opens it.]

I have a door you know.

[redeyedbluehound]

Doors are boring.

[He hops in from the window.]

What's in your head? You don't normally drop things like that.

[unknowntodeath]

[Archer's boring, you know this.]

I've been struggling with a... I suppose an identity crisis is a good word for it. Enough to do dark web quests and get involved with bad crowds that way. I told both Rin and Saber about it and they gave me talks both and... I decided to try be "myself" rather than hide behind Archer.

[redeyedbluehound]

[That's what he has Lancer for. To keep it interesting.]

Well then. It's atonement.

What even got you into the dark web quests to begin with? I doubt it was Saber, or Rin.

[And don't look at him.]

[unknowntodeath]

... that's all on me.

[Definitely not anyone else's fault.]

At first I just wanted to keep an eye on it, just to see what was going on. Then somehow I decided it was a good way to make myself different from Shirou.

[redeyedbluehound]

[Sigh]

[He uses Gae Bolg to tap him on his shoulder before shouldering it again.]

Archer. No matter what, we can't separate ourselves from the people we were before we died. You'll still be Shirou as much as I'm still Cu. We can't separate that from us.

[Wow, when can he be so serious?]

[unknowntodeath]

[At least it was just a tab and not a stab.]

I know. I guess I just needed to be reminded of that.

[And ... accept the fact.]

But I'm not the same as the Emiya Shirou you know anymore either. Just a version of the same person.

[redeyedbluehound]

[He smirks.]

You aren't much like your former self.

We're not the same person as the Servant who gets summoned at the beginning of the war. Considering everything. [A gesture around.] Especially this, you know?

[unknowntodeath]

Do you feel like you've changed a lot?

[That's surprising, to say at least.]

Other than being a literal wolf now.

[redeyedbluehound]

I've changed enough.

[He laughs]

Especially the wolf part.

But, I can say I'm not the same Lancer I was when I arrived. Or when I was summoned back during the war anyway.

[unknowntodeath]

I guess we change depending on the place we end up in. Had we been summoned to some other kind of place we might have been different from now.